Ever listen to a song that reaches into your soul and doesn’t let go?
“I Am” by Crowder is that song for me.
Each time a storm rages in my life, I listen to this song so as to be reminded that I can run to God, hold onto God and never let go.
But this morning it hit me.
I Am is the One holding me in the middle of the storm.
I am being held by the Great I Am.
Ugh! That spearheaded my soul like no other truth.
Sure, it should’ve been obvious. A big “duh” moment for me. But sometimes, I think it’s about perspective and how I relate to God.
Up until this moment I guess I always viewed my relationship with God as me, chasing Him. Me, trying to please God. I thought I was the one doing the holding. In fact, the image that always comes to mind when I listen to this song, is that of the woman with the bleeding disease found in Luke 8:43-48.
For 12 long years this woman sought doctors and different medicinal treatments to no avail. She was an outcast in her community. Shunned by those close to her.
Then came Jesus.
Her heart knew that all she needed was Jesus. To grasp hold of God, even in the smallest way, through the touching of His the hem would be enough.
Just one touch.
She fought the crowds, ignored the ridicule, with one goal in mind, Jesus.
On some level, this is how I see myself with Jesus. Me, in my desperation, during moments of chaos and storms, chasing after Him. Just like the woman in Luke 8, the goal is reaching Jesus.
Never in all my years of knowing Him, did it ever dawn on me that Jesus was already holding me. There wasn’t any need to chase. No panic needed. Instead, rest and security was His promise to me.
His efforts, not mine.
The Holy I Am was already aware of what I needed and able to give it.
Even now as I write this, tears flow.
The truth that God Himself would love me enough to hold me through the storms and beyond, is humbling. I didn’t have to chase Him. I didn’t have to fight crowds to be healed from the chaos of my life. I Am was already holding me.
“I Am holding on to you
I Am holding on to you
In the middle of the storm
I Am holding on
This is the truth for each of us.
There is no need for us to feel like we’re the ones doing all the reaching out, God is already holding us in the palm of His hand. In fact, He promises in Romans 8:38-39 the following: “ For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present or the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Today dear friend, I pray this truth sinks deep into our souls. May we accept His gift of being held in the middle of our storms so that we may rest in The Great I Am.
Until next time,
Blessings and best wishes,